Last night I lead a Doxasoma class on being present. (www.doxasoma.com - Look up what Doxasoma is. I have gotten certified over the last year and love leading it!!) Kirk and I have struggled with that lately. We both feel like we are waiting for God to move us. We have hopes and dreams of moving to Trinidad to an underesourced neighborhood to move in and begin our Christian Community Development, but God has not called us to move yet. So we remain in Roger's Park, waiting.
Our friends who we walked with as they resettled here from Burma as refugees have moved on to Texas. We miss them greatly, but are so glad they are doing well. Since they have left, this feeling of lost purpose has grown.
I still love my work as a massage therapist at my workplace and with my private clients. Kirk urges to leave his work as he has visions and dreams of empowering people through business and God. Meanwhile, our church community is changing as the founding pastor leaves at the end of June. We see good changes, but it is hard to wait. We've prayed, fasted, prayed more. It is as if we are in the starting blocks of a race, and we're waiting for the mark.
We are still hoping to start a family any time. But we are once again waiting for God to act. I know there is purpose in waiting. God is teaching us many things and continues to use us to help, heal, encourage, support and love our family and friends here. But wow - being present while waiting is so hard.
